RR Tidbits

This series reflects the inner thoughts of Rudra Pratap Ranawat in the episode leading to the famous eight pherewala marriage.

RR Tidbits - 1

Based on the first 1.30 minutes of the 9th April 2014 episode

 
"Didn't you declare in front of the whole world that you will marry this girl ? " the officer had asked him in front of all his colleagues and Singh Sir.
" That was for her own security " he had replied.
At least that is a good excuse




"Rudra Pratap Ranawat, didn't you take part with this girl in all the pre wedding rituals ? Which held no signifance for you ? " the officer's anger was growing leaps and bounds.
"Sirf Mere Liye Nahin. For her also. She knew very well ..." Rudra was not allowed to complete the sentence anyway
The rituals we went through. And they were not a lie. Not only for me. But for her also




"What happened was part of the mission." Rudra replied with a straightface.
As far as everybody else is concerned. Not for me and her




" Mission has ended a few weeks back. Then this episode with the girl also should have ended with the mission. " the officer's reasoning was not faulty
Yes it should have. I would have tied the mangalsutra. Only if she had not ran away. Only if she had not hit me in the head and vanished.




"Yes I had ended it then itself " Rudra answered it with a partial truth.
Rudra's was exported back to that day when like a fool he had gone behind her in a foolish hope that he can still get her back. He had driven like a mad man for a long distance. When he was about to give up hope he saw the butterfly Kangan of Paro. Just like Paro's Rukmini it had given him hope. But alas he could not pursue her further. He had to rush back to his critically injured father. A father who was trapped in fire. Supposedly by his love. By his Paro. There was no way he believed it anyway.




"If it had ended then what was the tamasha which happened in the felicitation ceremony the other day ?"
Did the officer had to remind Rudra about the same ?
" After that fiasco she is till in your house. Why ?"
"Sir, I did not call her into the haveli. She came all by herself. I had actually ..." Again Rudra was not allowed to complete the lie.
Thankfully. If he had wanted her out of his life he would not have looked at her with such love and tenderness when she explained why she threw the doll at him. He would not have thrown the sindoor in such a fashion that it fell on her maang. Yeah if anybody had any doubts about his aiming skills they can think again. He had aimed it at her maang. There was no doubt. By doing so he was sure she will be back. He had deliberately not rejected her proposal. Nor did he accept it verbally. He did the best he does always. Show in actions and not through words. He filled her maang in anger. And made sure she came to the haveli - back to him. To be with him.
At least that was a relief. That she came on her own. But he is not going to forgive her for ditching him at the altar as the saying goes.

RR Tidbits - 2

This was from 1:30 minutes to 3:30 minutes of the same video

 

 

 

"Didn't you ask her to stand outside in the rain ? Haan Ya Naa ?" the officer asked to the point
"Ji Sir" Rudra murmured.
What more can one say to an objective type question ? Maybe the officer's child was preparing for CAT




Singh Sir showed him the photo of Paro in the newspaper.
"Lekin Woh. I had told her something else. And she understood something else. It was not about this" Rudra tried to explain.
His eyes were fixed on Paro's image. Bhavali Kahin Ki. How can somebody be so stupid to stand in the rain ? That too on one leg ?




"Who will make those media people understand ? Those who are slinging mud on you and BSD ? " Singh Sir was equally relentless.
"But Sir ..." His thoughts were still on Paro
To prove the point that she loves him. Yeah right. She has no clue what love is. How much love means to him ? Love for Paro was in his each breath now. He may not have agreed to it. He will still not agree to it.
 


"You understand very well that BSD is considered as enemy in this region. From morning I am getting phone calls. Whom all should I answer ? "
And he will not forgive her for a long time to come for hitting him and going away with her father figure. Was it love she felt then ? She thinks she can prove his love so easily. No way. It takes more than that to convince Rudra. Rudra who hates women. Particularly beautiful ones.




"And most of them believe that BSD is not a place for officers like you" That got Rudra's attention finally.
"Kya Sir ?" Rudra looked dazed. Trying to focus on Singh Sir's words now.
"Rudra , till you solve this problem or get rid of the problem you cannot be kept on duty in BSD. And I agree with it too" Singh Sir who knew how dedicated Rudra was agreed with those guys ? And he is asking the great Rudra to go away from duty ?
"You can go now Major" the officer was back in the picture.
"Sir, what is the picture is not the complete truth. The truth is something else. And I can explain"
Rudra was now lost. His mind stopped talking about Paro. He could feel a tremor running up his spine.




"Rudra, I know you did not do it wantedly. But from your house , maybe the same girl, or whoever sent this photo to the press - based on the photo we are forced to take action. You can go now."
Singh Sir has taken the decision. Without even consulting him. He felt devastated. For once in the last so many weeks - his mind thought only about BSD. Paro who occupied his thoughts in an equal proportion all these days was forgotten.




"Par Sir ..."(Aman...said)
Rudra raised his hand and stopped him. He did not wanted to protest. He wanted to just leave - immediately. Because he knew what will follow if he stayed. But the next words proved him wrong. He had stayed one second extra. Anything can happen in a second. He should have known that.




"Rudra Pratap Ranawat - leave your badge , medal, gun and belt here. This is till the whole problem is solved. "
Rudra was looking at Singh Sir. But could not see him. His eyes were clouded with tears. He had been betrayed by his own years back. The only thing he held onto was BSD. He had worked day and night to win those medals. It was hard work with passion which helped him achieve it. And just like that they are taken away. He felt like a homeless person once again...
 

RR Tidbits - 3

Covering from 3:30 minutes till 5:30 minutes of the same video

Amandeep was asked to get all the belongings from Rudra.
Rudra felt as if his whole body was frozen.
Frozen with fear.
The only fear this courageous officer was aware of.
The fear of losing what he loves the most.
Once upon a time he loved his mother the most.
She left him on her own.
The BSD job is the second thing he loved in his life.
And that is being taken away from him.
Even in that frozen state his body went through the habitual act.
An act of obeying his seniors.
 
His hands placed the cap on the desk.
And there she was - letting go of her free flowing hair.
 
His head was free of the cap and hers was rid of the clip.
The similarity ended there
 
She adorned the jewels.
His medals were removed.

She wore the beautiful bridal dress.
His most beautiful dress, his uniform, was removed.

She decorated her arms with the bangles.
His belt , the decoration piece of his body was removed.

She wore the necklace which made her look empowered.
His pistol was taken away leaving him with no power.

She smiled at her glowing reflection in the mirror.
He cried looking at his own listless image in General's eyes.

She felt elated thinking how beautiful she looked dressed up.
He felt depressed thinking how ugly he looked devoid of the uniform. 

RR Tidbits - 4

Covering from 5:30 minutes till 6:36 minutes of the same video

 

There was nothing more for him to do at the BSD office.
Medals removed. Check
Badge removed. Check
Belt with gun removed. Check
Cap removed. Check
Pride removed. Check
Love of life removed. Check
The last bit of trust in God - removed. Check
 
He rushed out of the office. And did something which he seldom does.  Started drinking alone. Oh, he had grown up seeing his father drinking and blabbering every night. Alone. He had decided never to repeat that. Once you start drinking alone - there is no limit. No time. No control. It goes on and on. Rudra had been taking drinks almost every night for years now. But he always made sure he had company. That ensured that he stayed within limits. He knew he had no control on his tongue once he started drinking. And the presence of company made him alert. Alert to the amount of the brown liquid which he gulped down.


But today was a special day. The worst day of his adulthood. He can have this luxury of drinking alone. Right ? Flashes of Paro passed in front of his eyes. Her proposal, her challenge that neither can he let her go nor will she go away from him. Her agreeing to stand on one leg to prove her love. And her proving her love - standing in the rain. And then came the words of Singh Sir. How Rudra has to set right the wrong.


Wrong indeed. He had never been so shocked and surprised in his life. Though it was Paro who talked about destiny in front of 300 people, it was Rudra who came face to face with his destiny. The girl whom he had carried in his heart for years. The girl who gave away her doll to him. The only act of kindness he had witnessed all these years. That girl was Paro. And she was standing there explaining why she gave the doll to him. If only she had asked him he would have replied. It is his Bhagya that she gave him the doll. The doll which held his broken pieces of heart together. The doll which was the balm to the wound is his heart - for all these years. He extended his hand to touch her. To hug her. And then realized that they had an audience. A big one at that. With cameras and video. Bewakoof Ladki. Why couldn't she come to him when he was alone and explained this ? She could have waited for just five more minutes. And their lives would have been so different.  But no. She had to propose in front of everybody.


Rudra pulled his thoughts back and tried to concentrate at the moment. He had only taken a couple of sips of whisky. It was high time he stopped drinking. And started thinking of the next steps. And for his brain to work he had to get rid of the liquid in hand. What better way other than pour it over himself...And he did just that. Watched the alcohol wet and burn his moustache, his lips, his chain and his favorite jacket.


Rudra believed that innocent girl in the bus. But not this beautiful girl Paro. He could not believe that Paro is ready to go till the end of the earth with him. That she is ready to do any penance for him. How can a person who hated him, who admired his enemy, for years suddenly change her stance ? Can love happen in a day ? She never mentioned the doll or the boy before the felicitation ceremony. He was sure she never remembered the boy after that day. Even when he held out the Kumkum to her and said , " Shaadi Karni Hai " first time she did not say yes. He had deliberately left out Sumer's name. But her eyes did not light up with happiness. Or love for that matter.  Didn't she have the same expression when he repeated it after a minute and added "Sumer Se" Which means she had no feelings. No passion, no madness, no nothing. From the minute Rudra had met Paro in that jeep he had fallen for her. In all respects. His eyes had reflected the pain he felt when he came to know that she is going to be married. Yes he did love that innocent girl. But even before knowing that Paro is the same - he had fallen in love. He is not a man of words. But hadn't he shown his love through his actions ? By protecting her always ? By holding her every time she fell ? By running to her to wash away the poison on the Haldi day ? While searching for her on the Sangeet day like a mad man when she was away for five minutes ?  Wasn't he the one who took care of her foot when she got hurt ? Didn't he take care of her with so much tenderness ? Hasn't he looked at her eyes with all the love in the world ? Touched her many times to intimidate her only to lose himself in her eyes and beauty ? Hasn't he shown all the colors of love to Paro ? Hasn't he already been her Rangrasiya ?


And has she ever responded in that same manner? No. Maybe once or twice but she was never attracted to him the way he was to her. She never talked about love till the ceremony day. And now all she can say is about respect and destiny. Will she decide that her destiny has changed if she gets some other sign from her Bholenath ? How can he believe that she will not leave him and go away a few months down the lane ? If she does what will happen to him? And his poor heart which has already suffered enough. Paro through her act of kindness in the bus helped him to stay sane in the aftermath of his mother's treachery. If Paro leaves him tomorrow who will take care of him?
He has to protect himself and his heart. He has to shield himself from the possible future pain.


He took a deep breath. And looked at his options. There was only one solution to this whole mess. That he get married to Paro. Then he will get what he always wanted. To be with Paro till death do them apart. She will get what she said she wanted - though Rudra was not completely convinced about the same. And BSD will get what they want. Pride restored. Yes he has to get married to her. And he has to do it in such a way that others will think he is doing out of hatred. Paro herself has to believe that he is marrying her out of anger. That way he can still keep his heart from further agony. And he can also find out to what length she is ready to go. She has said she is ready to do any penance to be with him. To convince him. He will try his best to break her. And then if she leaves - he will accept that she was not meant to be with him anyway.


And if she stays
- and she did ask how can a wife leave her husband's house didn't she ? -
he will be sure that he can trust her to be his soul mate.


That she will never leave him. Not after 15 years. Not after 50 years. And hoping that you do not break and hoping that you will never leave me - here I come Paro.
He loves her madly. He trusts his love for her is the one. But he does not have enough trust in her love.
She says she loves him. She says she trusts her Bhagya. She says she is ready to do anything.
Both of them need to go through this test.
Parooo Here I come...


 
"Dark Side"
Oh Oh Oh, there's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away?


Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am
 
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
 
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Rangrasiya 9th April 2014 Full Episode