Chapter 3

RR through my eyes (Chapter 3)
 The hate wedding. The lesser he thinks about it the better. There was never a day in his life when he did not regret it. He would have hurt Paro in a way in which nobody ever would have done. Came in drinking and took those stupid vachans. And one extra added especially for her. That Rudra will never be Paro's !! Nothing can be further from the truth. He has all his life loved only Paro.  Probably from the moment he set his eyes on her. From the moment he looked back at her in the bus. Much later when he rolled with her in the sand. When he saw her face in the mirror. Sometimes it looks as if he has gone through as many incidents in his life which a normal person faces in ten lives. Supersonic speed his life has been.


Coming back to Paro and his love. Rudra's thoughts went like this... I should have kept my mouth shut. Just like the Samaaj Sevak ladies said. He blurts out many things which makes his life difficult later. He had given great lectures to his Bhabhisa about his love for Paro and only Paro. When Bhabhisa brought a girl and her mother home for an alliance. And then he vented out all his anguish to Myrah as well. About how a marriage cannot happen without love. How he can never feel love for Myrah. Even if she takes many births. How she will never be Paro even though she looks like one


Kaash Main Chup Rehta
Kaash Main Ne Woh Video cam Pehle hi Dekha hota
Kaash Myrah ne Dhruv Ko Samjhaaya Na Hota
Kaash...
"Aapke sab Kaash Bekaar, Major Saab" He was reminded of Paro's words. Yeah right - all Kaash has gone down the drain.


How in the world can he walk upto to Myrah now and declare that he wants to marry her ? He can envision the dialogue as below


Rudra: Tum usse shaadi nahi kar sakti ho
Myrah: What, are you serious? Lekin kyun?
Rudra: Woh tumhare liye sahi nahi hai?
Myrah: Seriously dude? What do you mean by that?
Rudra looks away..."Tum usse pyaar nahi karti.."
Myrah: Toh kya hua, dost hai mera... And yes why do you care? Tumhe kya farak padta hai, mein Rohit se shaadi karun ya nahi. Just Chill. Okay ?
Rudra: Myrah tum nahi jaa sakti ho...ruko
Myrah: Let me go Rudra, agar tumhare pass koi jawab nahi hai toh...mujhe shaadi ki tayariya karni hai...And yeah, if you find an answer you can leave a video recording - if you have no guts to say it to me personally.
Rudra: Jawab Hai Mere Paas. Aur Main Darta Nahin Huun. Mein tumhe kisi aur se shaadi karte nahi dekh sakta
Myrah: Lekin kyun Rudra
Rudra: Dhruv Tumhen Bahut Miss Karega. Uske Liye Mujhe Tumse Shaadi Karni Padegi
Myrah: Really ? But I have explained to him and he is fine. What exactly is your problem ?
Rudra: Main Tumhare Bina Jee Nahin Sakta
Myrah shocked: What? Seriously? Woh apne aap se zyada pyaar jo Paro ke liye hai uska kya? .tumhare jaisa aadmi sirf ek baar pyaar kar sakta hai...so just leave me alone...Mein tumhari Paro kabhi nahi bann sakti..Na Banna Chahti Hoon


No. This is not how he wants the conversation to go. How can he stop the wedding without confessing his love to Myrah. He cannot say I love you to her. She is too smart to believe it. And stupid Dhruv has agreed for her to leave !!


And to add to this confusion Samrat and Bhabhisa trying to send him away for a few days. As if he wants to be anywhere else other than with Myrah now. They want Rudra to g away so that he need not see Dhruv's pain. Dhruv's pain ? For the first time in his life he was more worried about his loss and pain and not his son's !!


And he told Bhabhisa that he can handle the situation and he will be here till Myrah gets married. And by saying he will be fine he implicitly made Maithili know that he will not be fine. Dammit.


(To be continued)...