RR through my eyes (Chapter 3)
The hate wedding. The lesser he
thinks about it the better. There was never a day in his life when he did not
regret it. He would have hurt Paro in a way in which nobody ever would have
done. Came in drinking and took those stupid vachans. And one extra added
especially for her. That Rudra will never be Paro's !! Nothing can be further
from the truth. He has all his life loved only Paro. Probably from the moment he set his eyes on
her. From the moment he looked back at her in the bus. Much later when he
rolled with her in the sand. When he saw her face in the mirror. Sometimes it
looks as if he has gone through as many incidents in his life which a normal
person faces in ten lives. Supersonic speed his life has been.
Coming back to Paro and his love.
Rudra's thoughts went like this... I should have kept my mouth shut. Just
like the Samaaj Sevak ladies said. He blurts out many things which makes his
life difficult later. He had given great lectures to his Bhabhisa about his
love for Paro and only Paro. When Bhabhisa brought a girl and her mother home
for an alliance. And then he vented out all his anguish to Myrah as well. About
how a marriage cannot happen without love. How he can never feel love for
Myrah. Even if she takes many births. How she will never be Paro even though
she looks like one
Kaash Main Chup Rehta
Kaash Main Ne Woh Video cam Pehle hi
Dekha hota
Kaash Myrah ne Dhruv Ko Samjhaaya Na
Hota
Kaash...
"Aapke sab Kaash Bekaar, Major Saab"
He was reminded of Paro's words. Yeah right - all Kaash has gone down the
drain.
How in the world can he walk upto to
Myrah now and declare that he wants to marry her ? He can envision the dialogue
as below
Rudra: Tum usse shaadi nahi kar sakti ho
Myrah: What, are you serious? Lekin kyun?
Rudra: Woh tumhare liye sahi nahi hai?
Myrah: Seriously dude? What do you mean by that?
Rudra looks away..."Tum usse pyaar nahi karti.."
Myrah: Toh kya hua, dost hai mera... And yes why do you care?
Tumhe kya farak padta hai, mein Rohit se shaadi karun ya nahi. Just Chill. Okay
?
Rudra: Myrah tum nahi jaa sakti ho...ruko
Myrah: Let me go Rudra, agar tumhare pass koi jawab nahi hai toh...mujhe
shaadi ki tayariya karni hai...And yeah, if you find an answer you can leave a
video recording - if you have no guts to say it to me personally.
Rudra: Jawab Hai Mere Paas. Aur Main Darta Nahin Huun. Mein
tumhe kisi aur se shaadi karte nahi dekh sakta
Myrah: Lekin kyun Rudra
Rudra: Dhruv Tumhen Bahut Miss Karega. Uske Liye Mujhe Tumse
Shaadi Karni Padegi
Myrah: Really ? But I have explained to him and he is fine. What
exactly is your problem ?
Rudra: Main Tumhare Bina Jee Nahin Sakta
Myrah shocked: What? Seriously? Woh apne aap se zyada pyaar jo Paro ke
liye hai uska kya? .tumhare jaisa aadmi sirf ek
baar pyaar kar sakta hai...so just leave me alone...Mein tumhari Paro kabhi
nahi bann sakti..Na Banna Chahti Hoon
No. This is not how he wants the
conversation to go. How can he stop the wedding without confessing his love to
Myrah. He cannot say I love you to her. She is too smart to believe it. And stupid
Dhruv has agreed for her to leave !!
And to add to this confusion Samrat and Bhabhisa
trying to send him away for a few days. As if he wants to be anywhere else
other than with Myrah now. They want Rudra to g away so that he need not see Dhruv's
pain. Dhruv's pain ? For the first time in his life he was more worried about
his loss and pain and not his son's !!
And he told Bhabhisa that he can
handle the situation and he will be here till Myrah gets married. And by saying
he will be fine he implicitly made Maithili know that he will not be fine. Dammit.
(To be continued)...
I saw the date of the post and it was the day the last episode of RR aired....sigh! such is life...coming back to the chapter, u have written whats going on in banna's head very well, and the myrud convo in his head sweet and simple. Now I am very eager to see how our restless hero finds a way out to woo back his lady love ;-)
ReplyDeleteHey JJ, was there an update on comment posting or something? Had written a long comment to this chapter seems like it has not gotten posted ...
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ReplyDeleteAparna, Got all your comments. Thanks dear.
ReplyDeleteThat Myrud convo if I am not mistaken was written by DD. She allowed me to publish it I think. Though I am not sure. Need to recheck.
But in anycase glad you liked the chapter.
If you are logged in and then you post I think it will not show "Sent for approval message" I guess.
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hate wedding
ReplyDeletehmmm that was just silly mate
why did you do that
you were just hers
no wonder she came back again
but to make you pay she dont remember
if only cannot help mate
not when you have ruined things
paro was right he shouldnt say things he would regret
or not talk at all
he screws up
but then he didnt know she is his paro
karma mate
what you did to paro in that hate wedding
this is the pay back
now sit back and see your paro being someone else
dhruv toh samajh liye but not his father